I’ve got the best friends in the world. They brought me back down to earth, after panicking YET AGAIN. I’m aware now that I’m just getting cold feet, cause things are heading in a “serious” direction with him, at least more serious than everything else that happened to me in the last 10 years… I mean he really tries and he’s incredibly nice, even though lets face it, he could do way better than me. and all of this scares the living shit out of me. I know my head works like this, I really need to be brave and do this even though I’m scared. I let fear take control of my life for way too long.
yep. so… friday is gonna be rad, and I won’t let myself ruin this.
Sorry for being such a whiny-annoying idiot.
I need help/advice.
so, this friday I’m seeing him again. we’re going for dinner, then we’ll have wine and watch boardwalk empire at his place. I’m gonna sleep over and on saturday we’ll have lunch with his friends and watch the game.
(nothing physical happened yet, but definitely will this time I guess)
I’m freaking out right now because - and now comes the really FUCKED UP thing- ever since he’s been trying so hard I’m feeling like I’m loosing interest.
WHY. why is this happening? I want this to work, I like him, I was really into him and now I feel weird about it all. what is this? can someone quickly psychoanalyse me and tell me how to fix this?